Tootsie Rolls and more Tootsie rolls

final reflection paper

Smell of fresh mowed grass. A field painted with a white circle in the middle. The bright warm sun starting to loose its heat as the soccer season starts. Two friends watching one of the soccer players. Butterflies fluttering in my stomach trying to escape as I watch him more intently and realize he is smiling at me or at lest in my direction. Hoping with all my heart that he is really looking at me, and not just looking around for someone else.

The two of us talk about where to sit. I pled with Kenzie not to have us walk behind the goal post’s for fear of being hit by a ball. Since I have the worst luck, only I can manage to have someone say it’s like one out of a hundred; I can have it happen three times to me. I only was hit once while running past the on coming balls of fire. We sit down on the grass pull out our treat’s of sweet’s to keep us happy. I tap Kenzie on the arm “ I don’t only have candy but I have I eye candy too”. This boy just wasn’t candy he was my crush for the moment anyway. He could make me go crazy with everything he did. Tickling me during class, asking for my cell phone number in front of the whole class, coming and saying, “ what’s cooking good looking “ during my English class. This crush was tall; six one size thirteen shoe, dark brown hair, and blue green eyes and was very hot! Plus very athletic and popular.


We talk about the guy I came to watch play. We joke about how if he ever asked me out what I would do. We thought a movie would be about right, popcorn, soda, holding hands everything that you see happens in the movies. We joked about if he went to kiss me I would just stuff my mouth with popcorn. We made up tons of scenarios about what I would do what jokes I would say to help things not be so awkward. I don’t know why I said I would put food in my mouth to avoid kissing him. That is silly of me seeing a would daydream about him kissing me.


Kenzie starts saying very loud, you just like him too much, and Jenny you do you like him way too much. While she is saying this way to loud for where we are sitting, he starts walking towards us. I franticly try to get her to stop saying that I like him. She didn’t stop or seem to hear. Kenzie finally sees him coming, gets up and not walks or jog but sprints away leaving me alone with him, who must have heard that I like him way to much several times.

I grabbed the tootsie roll bag and put as many tootsie rolls in my mouth. Thinking to myself, it’s bad manners to talk with your mouth full so if I stuff my mouth full of them then I won’t have to talk to him. That way I can’t make myself look like an idiot. O sure I can! He says, hi. All I could do was smile and hope he’d walk away and fast before I did anything that would embarrass me. I can feel saliva slip down my chin. He asked what I thought of the game. I just gave two thumbs up. Thinking wow, did I just really do that? I most certainly did. Ha, ha he must think I am the grosses and strangest girl he has ever met. He smiled turned and walked slowly away to go be with his team. He must have realized that I had something in my mouth right. He probable thought it was just a couple of tootsie rolls in my mouth but it was more like my foot and a whole ton of tootsie rolls in it. I got up looking for Kenzie. I am going to kill you was my thought, and intention for blowing my cover. He was never suppose to know I liked him till he said he liked me then I could tell him I like him.


We started to leave the soccer field, when we ran into my health teacher. I didn’t think she would have noticed me out of the classroom. Jennifer who are you here for? Surprised that my teacher had known I had come for a boy I pointed out the goalie number nine. I thought to myself no point in lying about it everyone is going to find out soon thanks to Kenzie. “Oh, him I know him, many girls came to watch him.” We said good-bye to Mrs. Norris. Could this day get any better the guy I like most likely know I like him and to top it off my teacher knows.


Kenzie and I got in my car Sivilla, we burst out with laughter. We laughed until our sides hurt and we couldn’t breath. Kenzie and I where as red as tomatoes after we had our laugh attack. As we drive, I tell her what happened when she left me alone with him. Jen, so you really did end up stuffing your face with food. Oh, Jen only you could have that experience. But think it can’t get any worse okay maybe it can but it will be one great story to tell. Oo and look on the bright side now you might not have to tell him how you feel. As kenzie got out of the car she said ever so sweetly “you can thank me later love ya”.


After that story you would think okay so that must have been when I was in Jr. High no not at all, I was a junior in High school. I always had a perfect picture of how my high school life would be and it wasn’t going in the right direction. How ‘s that for a twist in the story?